Sialia

Closing my eyes
Again there
Might be you
The blue bird coming back fluttering

Opening my eyes
Whirling darkness
Anybody’s voice being drowned out
Never able to take you back

Bound with past
Me collapsed
Afterimage of love keeps wetting in vain

Smiling together in the soft memory
Feeling eternity at the impending moment
Lightly kissed you colored white
Subtle smile melting
into light

Had known your love
Fatuous me averted my eyes
Unforgiven for redemption

Opening my eyes
Spilling down
over my eyelids
A drip of sin
Again another

Eroded by past
Me ulcerated
Afterimage of blue keeps soothing in vain

Scented warmth coming to full of tears
Not able to fulfil your last hope
At the corner of the room being colored white
Like a painting everything now
being dried

Icy for

Echoing in my mind even now
Ring veiled in darkness
Icy blue running down the neck

Soundless shattering into pieces
Kaleidoscope reflecting memories
Shiny pieces stinging into wounds

Even if cannot reach you
wanna shadow you
who gave me unbounded dreams

You are in white
I am in blue
in the separated worlds now

Bye until we see in white
Ran too much
Hurried too much
Lost your wind

However, staying alive
on my fingertips
in my heart

Not knowing until touching your lip
you are no longer here
Shiver starting to accelerate

In the midst of everything turning into the past tense
held the digital face
with emptiness piercing through me

Even if cannot reach you
wanna shadow you
who gave me a ray of light to live

You are in white
I am in blue
in the separated worlds now
Bye until we see in white

Pain too much
Sadness too much
My heart almost being ripped apart

Cannot forget
voice of yours
scream of your heart

Ran too much
Hurried too much
Lost your wind

However, staying alive
on my fingertips
in my heart

in my future...

icy for me
icy for......

Concealed

Losing the wind
Falling with the scarred wings in the veil
Love-hate drama spread before the eyes
The feeling at that time repeating

Let me vanish in time
shivering in the flux of time
holding the eternally unforgivable rusty pride

Inside of your shadow
Losing love
Can’t take it back
Repeating sins
You concealed     Love

Can’t stop senses from vanishing
Seared scars under the blue sun
Feelings for you remain still
Memories breaking apart
Stagnant pale sky
Gazing at the intangible view
The word at that time repeating

Let me end in time
freezing in the flux of time
holding the eternally unforgivable entwined jealousy

Inside of your shadow
Can’t break down the blue view
Repeating sins
You concealed     Love

Inside of your shadow
Losing dreams
Can’t go back
Can’t stop sins
You sealed Love

Inside of …
Can’t I be loved?

Inside of your shadow
Losing love
Can’t take it back
Repeating sins
You concealed     Love

Screen

Was looking at you walking in the city in the blue morning.
So distant that I couldn’t tell what you were looking at.
Losing their meanings are woven memories:
words hurting one another, rusty rhythm in my heart as well.

The dream-filled scenery’s peeling off.
Dancing shadows deep in the monitor blur with tears.

Hold on to only your inornate feeling,
during ephemeral nights,
screaming and screaming.

Saw you in profile and your colorless eye.
My reply on that day would be lost in the air.

In the flowing images coloring inorganic things,
I believed you could come to a stand, but...

Have been afraid of only letting you out of my sight,
with the voice not carring,
screaming and screaming,
in vain.

Negative in mind.
Affirmative in behavior.
The dilemma tears my hurt like the S.

Feelings that are hard to be conveyed with only words
have been depicted in the screen
over and over again.

I’ll live in this screen?
Sometime...